Merry Christmas poppet! Another christmas with no sparkle... it's impossible to have any without you being around. We all say that you light up the room & it's so true,lifes so dull. We do try our best to carry on but no one knows how hard it is even to just smile, when inside your crumbling. Our only bit of comfort is the fact that Stuart is coming tomorrow to stay, which helps as i just love having him around for a short time & I know your probably telling me not to mother him! but I can't help it (I need to take care of my other boy).I found you some gorgeous trinkets & boxes in TK, i just love looking for new things that I can put in your room or up at the cemetry & I know that you would do the same for me. Hope you like them? I've just realised that i've never listened to Will young since you left me, I find it so heartbreaking to think of all the fun that we had celebrating his win on pop idol, those are special moments that i'll never be able to capture again.There are so many & sometimes I feel like writing a book, but it's hard to type through the blur of tears! I really hope that you like your Cinderella cabinet? I absolutely love it, as I can add all your beautiful shoes & photos that match the dresses.These are the simple things that help me to cope with loosing the most precious girl that we had the pleasure of bring into this world! Poor Mark he now gets so smoothered I'm so frightened to let him go!I know I have to but not yet, I pity the poor girl that captures his heart she'll need to be extra special! HaHa! Dare she upset him. My minds is burling all the time with what's ahead for us as it sometimes feels like we'll never be happy again, we just have to take one day at a time. We'll never stop missing you my wee angel & crying for the love & happiness that you brought to all of us in your own special way that you did! Jayne you were unique!!! love always xxxxx