Hello again darling. It has been a while since i said hello, but you have never been out of my mind lately. The festive season is so tough without those who are loved and missed. This was my first without my Gran, it was so upsetting, i can only imagine how your family feel every year. I hope that your both up there having a gossip while watching over us all down here! I wish i had gotten the chance to gibber with you thanks to the wonders of social networking and stuff before you got taken away from us. When you think how much time we spent together growing up it saddens me to think i never got to see you more. Im still not out and about much apart from going to appointments, and Aunt Elsa is always calling mum to see how i am, one of these days im gonna have good news for you all and actually make it to put some flowers down for you myself. Until then, you are all always in my thoughts, to the point that i came across one of my fave poems the other day and i thought i would share it here, think your mum might like reading it too as it brings me comfort lately. "You can shed tears that she is gone or you can smile because she has lived. You can close your eyes and pray that she'll come back or you can open your eyes and see all she's left. Your heart can be empty because you can't see her or you can be full of the love you shared. You can turn your back on tomorrow and live yesterday or you can be happy for tomorrow because of yesterday. You can remember her and only that she's gone or you can cherish her memory and let it live on. You can cry and close your mind, be empty and turn your back or you can do what she'd want: smile, open your eyes, love and go on." Sending everyone my love as always, Lynnie xXx