Hello, my Darling Jayne, it truly is unbelievable that 14 years have passed without you. My heart still aches for you honey! Everything I go to do I really just want to tell you. I try to keep myself busy & I never mope around. I have had the biggest change ever! I closed the shop and have moved it down to the back door. I just couldn't go on any longer as the overheads were just too much. I am finally starting to settle now as everyone is coming along and supporting me, they love it. Mark has been so good he has done all the work that I needed to get it up and running and I couldn't have done it without him. Though he rushed me into getting it done, so I suppose I needed the push. I miss you Aly for fixing all my jobs that were needing repaired, you were definitely my handy man! Now I have gone and got a new puppy into the chaos! She's called Tina....Aly just for you. I'm sure you would approve. I totally need something to nurture and take care of. We miss Rufus so much and the girls kept asking me to get a new puppy. Can you imagine what they will be like when they meet her on Friday? I have taken the day off for your anniversary to settle in my baby. I did say as soon as I am working from home I will get one. We had a terrible scare with Mum she was so unwell again and Aly we know what that was like through lock down. I just can't imagine what I will do if anything happens to her, I just couldn't cope!! We are going to the dancing girls Halloween party for you Jayne, these girls are amazing they really do my heart good still doing it for you after all these years. I had lunch out with Laura, she was down with your flowers for the cemetery. I do love catching up with her and hearing about the other girls from university, they are all getting on great. I always wonder what stage we would be with you now Jayne I am sure your life would have been similar to them a few kids running around a wee happy home. Hopefully some time I will get Mark in a happy place as he is so mixed up right now. I wish he had his big sister to advise him. I miss you both so much I can't even explain in words how distraught I am. This is what your dealt and I just have to carry on as best I can, it is not easy let me tell you. Sending all my love. We love you more than ever!