Hi Poppet, It can't possibly be 2 years tomorrow since you took your last breathe. It still feels so surreal, not a moment pass that your not on our minds. We are always talking about all your antics and there are many! They say that times a great healer.. it's not! My acheing heart just gets weaker every day without you. I try to do all the things that you would want me to do, but it's hard not having you here to bounce all my daft ideas off. I organized another charity night in your honour & I tried to put every ounce of you into it! with cupcakes, feathers & diamonds (well maybe they were more for me!) We all enjoyed ourselves & felt that you were with us on the dance floor boogeying away as you did best. It is so good for us Jayne to have all your lovely friends & the family coming along to join us & taking the time to travel here to celebrate your wonderful life with us. Stuart still managed to make it although he's been up & down so often at weddings & the stag doos, he said he wouldn't miss it for the world & I know he wouldn't as he misses you too! His life is so quiet without you, he's made lots of new friends down in Gillingham. We had a lovely time at Mhairi & David's wedding, she was gorgeous! all off Stuart's family made us so welcome, it was so hard for Dad & I as we know how much you would have loved to be part of their special day. Mhairi had added lovely wee touches of you, with her butterfly theme & colours that you liked. Everybody in their own way tries to keep your memories alive & that helps to get us through our awful loss. Craig & Theresa's wedding was lovely too. It was a day just about perfect except you weren't there! All these things come & go & people tell me not to go as it will upset us, but i feel that this is everyone else's special days & as you know you can't get these precious moments back & I still want to be a part of all these wonderful times, though it is hard for dad & I to watch everyone around us being happy the way we used to be. We still have Mark & for that i'm eternally grateful! I know that in time he will give us lovely happy memories, just not at the moment. It's all too numbing.