Hi Jayne, well honey I can't believe that you haven't been with us for 10 long lonely heart breaking years! It sometimes feels like you left us yesterday & other times it feels like it's been forever.....! Life is so cruel & we know that more than anyone, your whole presence is missing from your loud voice to your dancing feet, louder laughter & of course your mountain of knowledge...!! Life goes on and we do our best to keep smiling but its very hard to do that without you! We where at the dancing girls Halloween party & they raised £1,500 or more in your memory. It was a great fun night & we danced Baby Jane for you!! Lauren got some fantastic prizes for the raffle, she misses you, but every now & then she brings me the most sweet little gifts that she's seen that reminds me of you! I had to cancel my night for your 10th Anniversary as it was all getting too much & I was making myself ill, so I made the decision...but it broke my heart as I love getting everyone together to honour your memory & just have fun. Im going to have it in May instead. The house is now in total chaos with walls down, but it will be so worth it to have a lovely big kitchen diner for entertaining our Friends & family. Though everyone has had fun in my tiny wee kitchen!!! We've had some parties here & we always managed to get everyone squeezed in. I'm excited to get the girls wee princess room done, I'm having fun picking them all their girly stuff, you would absolutely love them they are adorable & so full of fun!! Millie is the wee cheeky one & Lolla is quiet but they both love dancing, singing & getting stories read to them. Mark misses you the most he's not got his big sister to talk to & get all your advice.... he's lost without you! Stuart is such a lovely guy you did well when you picked him! We are still going to see him & his wee family or they call in to us. Can you believe that Mhairi is onto baby number three! As you can imagine Mary is in her element looking after them all. We went down to Ella's 3rd Birthday party at Stuarts, wee Alex is so cute he's so cuddly & sweet. Was nice to be with all the Parks. I was out for lunch with Laura on Wednesday, she really misses you, she never forgets a Birthday or Anniversary, the girls all send there love, but no babies yet for Kirstin or wee Kirstin. I wonder who'll be first? I've told Laura to get on a dating app! Lol but she said she's happy doing her own thing, I'd love her to get a nice fella. We need one for Ann too! She's loving her job at the airport, she needs to get a nice pilot! Aunty Jean is doing well, she's starting to get her energy back & wanting to go places so that's a good sign! I'm still loving my work, all my ladies are so sweet they keep my chin up & I get endless amounts of Tea & sympathy, hugs & laughter you can't beat it for making your day feel better!! Well honey do you believe it your Dad loved Monto Gordo! We had the best time ever...! We had a fab time with Paddy, Kerry & Connie, we had such a good time at the pigeon race, though Happy Sausage didn't win for us!!! We're going to go next year. Us girls did a lovely spa day & the guys went to the pigeon place, can you imagine your Dad in shorts never been seen before lol. We have got Blair & Jen's wedding tomorrow at ingleston, so looking forward to it we love the Lyles so that's going to be a fun one! It was going to be a mad weekend so that's also my reason for having to cancel your night...but don't you worry honey I'll pull all the stops out in May for my girl!!!!! My heart aches for you Jayne I miss you so so much Darling I've not just lost a daughter I lost my best friend & dance partner! I still have fun when I go out but oh a big chunk of me is missing and it's YOU!!!! We all love & miss you every single minute of every day you may be gone but...you'll never be forgotten my gorgeous angel! Love you Jayne x