Hello honey, Well I guess you where missing your Dad & you wanted him to join you! Me & Mark are absolutely devastated! Our hearts have been broken all over again. I am shattered & I will miss him dreadfully. Jayne as you know we where joined at the hip, I cant even comprehend how I'm going to live without him. I loved him unconditionally! He was truly a one & only gem of a man! I already miss his big reassuring hugs that everything will be alright! Life is so cruel but just knowing that you will be buried together makes me feel a bit more contented. I'm sure you will already be raising a glass of whisky...or two! lol He absolutely adored Lola & Millie, they loved being in the garden with him & off course seeing the pigeons too. The girls loved singing catch the pigeon...! to him. He always had a wee malteser or two for them, they would jump up on his knee & ask him "have you got anything special granpa for your girls" he would laugh & produce the treats. They will miss their Granpa Aly but we will make sure they never ever forget him! We are so overwhelmed with the support from all the family & friends, my house looks like a florist they just keep coming & everyone of them is gorgeous!! you would love them. I am so glad we had that fab 60th birthday party for him last year. This year has been surreal & has had many twists & turns. I had your granny Gillies down to stay for 7 weeks with lockdown & she was unwell then your Dad took ill with his heart. I was on meltdown with the stress of it all. Just when I thought we where turning a corner to getting back to normal your Dad goes & leaves me!! Poor Paddy he was with him & he tried his best to save him but it wasn't to be. I will carry on & I will do my utmost to make sure Mark & the girls are as happy as can be. Mark is totally shattered not only has he lost the support of his big sister now he's lost his Dad. I am going to give him the Biggest & Best send off that I can manage with limited people allowed because of this dreadful disease. Just watch what I can do for my wonderful husband & soul mate! We had a special bond that no one could break & we would have been 38 years married on 29th July. I will go out with Mark & celebrate like he would want me to. It is so gut wrenching going through the days without him. I've had to do it for the last 12 years of losing you honey so here we go again...! I will go now & I will fill you in with all the details of the celebration of your Dad's life next time. goodnight sweat heart & big hugs from me to you both!