Hello Darling Jayne, can't believe it's 8 years since we last saw you smile, I miss the buzz you had when you came home! It was never quiet with you around, sometimes I even miss the arguments we used to have, it was always eventful. Mark is like a lost wee sheep, I worry terribly for him, he's got no one to talk to how he feels, as he knows that I get upset for him. I went with Mark & Jen to the girls Halloween party on Friday night it was great fun! they all miss you too. We always have a laugh together about all your daft antics & they also wish you were still here. It's so wonderful to think that they want to do something special for you in your memory. I haven't seen your wee robin up the cemetery yet, he usually bobs about when I'm tidying up, I think it's old Neily! We had a visit from Stuart , Emily & Ella you would love her she's just so cute! Oh I just love Stuart he's such a great guy, he never misses an opportunity to visit anytime he's up this way. I've to go down to their house for a holiday sometime, I would like that but I don't know how I'd manage to keep it together. I still struggle to keep up the pretence that everything is fine, cos it's not!!! I could scream sometimes with the sheer grief of it all! It was really hard for us all at the York wedding, Mark still struggles to get through these events as his sidekick is missing. We just watch the rest of the family getting on with life & we know you would have loved to have been with us! Alan & Sophie were amazing the day was fantastic. We had a wonderful time with everyone, as usual your daft Mum had a shot on the kids swing, I loved it! Linsey & David's wedding was wonderful as well, Aunty Heather's outfit was beautiful she scrubs up well! lol. Your Dad & Uncle Gerald were like a pair of grumpy old men, it was a hoot listening to them. I'm glad he enjoyed it. I think that's all the events over for this year, it has flown in. Wee Granny Gow has come to join you, she was a wee poor soul at the end. Feel sorry for Lorna her wee Mammy's lost her battle. I'm going to go now I'll speak to you soon We love you more than words can say & we miss you more each day! Dance in the clouds my angel. x