Hi Poppet, I just cannot believe that 5 years have gone past since you closed your beautiful eyes & had your last smile! Life is so unfair you had so much more living to do, strictly is so not the same! I can't watch it without crying for us! We went up to Dundee for Calleigh's 1st Birthday, she loved Rainbow, she's so cute. We had a great time with Stuart & his family, oh if only it could be different you would have loved it. Stuart couldn't make it up this weekend, so he's coming next week which is great, we love sending time with him. I wish i had organised a charity night i've missed planning everything around you! Aunt Heather & i went to the dancing girls Halloween disco it was fab! we had such a laugh at all there efforts at making costumes, right up your street. They have raised over £1,000 & they are still collecting. The girls all miss you dreadfully, they say they will never stop collect for leukeamia in your memory. It's lovely to see what they are all doing. Had Lauren & Kirstin down yesterday, even with the weather horrendous they still came down with your flowers, they are beautiful. Kat popped in with Muriel, was lovely to see her. They are missing you & all your antics, that you used to get up too! What can I say Jayne it so hard for us watching your friends blossom into beautiful ladies, it's so special that they come to see us even after all this time. You have a fantastic group of wonderful friends & that's what has got us through the last 5 years. Time they say is a great healer, yes it is, but our hearts are permanently scarred & the tears won't dry! In my silly little head I still have you up in Larbert surrounded by love. How wonderful is it to see Mark changing into the great fun loving Man that he was supposed to be, before his world was ripped apart loosing you. He's loving Next & all the hot totty! of course he loves being dressed in shirt & tie! Dad is still his usual quiet self taking care of his birds & arguing pigeon talk. I try to get him away from home as much as I can, but as you know that's neigh on impossible! Maybe some day he'll whisk me off to somewhere sunny but till then I'll just need to sort things, one can always dream! Well darling life is but a dream & I will some day be back to being the happy mum I used to be when we all are back together!! Till then i will strive to make the most of every day the way you always did, goodnight my sweet angel & dance on in the stars with Lynne.